Wedding Planning Craziness

Planning a wedding, holy crap, is pretty much the most stressful thing imaginable. Or, at least, planning mine right now is.

I was on a roll, and then everything came to a screeching halt. Scott's dad passed away and I've been trying to take care of everyone. It's getting better every day though. I was going to delay the wedding but Scott doesn't want to.

So I'm trying to be glue and plan my wedding at the same time.

My friend Anna is going to make my dress but I've been looking at dresses anyway, for ideas. I really like this ballet-inspired wedding dress. Maybe with a corset-style top.

I've put my friend Crystal in charge of the flowers... she's a florist for one, and I really kind of hate flowers, and would rather not have to look at a million to pick the bouquets.

Cakes... hah. My friend Anna complained while she was planning her wedding that oddly enough, the worst part was picking a cake, and that she got tired of tasting them. While I don't completely understand how one gets tired of tasting cakes, I can see how it's a rough choice, cause holy crap they are ALL delicious. Why don't birthday cakes taste as good as wedding cakes??

September 19th is still kind of far away but it feels like it's rushing at me like a speeding train.

Random Survey

I don't blog often, do I? Hehe. Here, have a random meme/survey thing.

Do you have any condoms in your room?
Yea, though they don't get used very often.

Last place you took a nap?
The couch, curled up with Kailyn and Benji (yea, somehow we all fit on the couch!)

Does any part on your body hurt?
Surprisingly, no.

Next time you will kiss someone?
As soon as I go to the other side of the room to kiss Scott.

What are you excited for?
My wedding :D We picked a date! More on that next entry.

Do you care what others think about you?
Not particularly, no.

Have you ever had a black and white cat?
I didn't, but one of my roommates did.

Who is the first person you would call if you needed help?
Sammy, if it wasn't something that Scott could help with.

Do you know what you are going to wear tomorrow?
Clothes?

What did you do last Friday night?
I went to a party at Adam's house.

Is there something you wish you could tell someone but cant?
I would like to tell one of my clients what a complete tool he is, but I want to get paid.

What woke you up this morning?
Kailyn demanding scrambled eggs.

Would you ever get a tattoo?
I've got a few already; not planning on getting any more but I won't rule it out.

Do you like someone that doesn't know you like them?
Scott knows damn well how I feel about him :p

Has someone ever told you they would be with you forever?
A few, but only one of them has put any sort of ring on my finger.

Who was the first person to break your heart?
Kailyn's dad, Gavin.

Did you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night?
... I have a small child; I *never* get 8 hours of sleep.

Do you find the opposite sex confusing?
Nah, guys are easy. I'm more baffled by other girls.

How long does it take for you to take a shower?
5 minutes. I'm an in-and-out kind of gal.

What's on your mind RIGHT NOW?
Slurpees.

Have you seen anyone lately that you don't get along with?
Nah; I get along with everybody here.

What do you hear?
Benji snoring and Scott playing piano.

How is life going for you right now?
Life is going fantastically :D 2009 is made of awesome.

Do you believe exes can be friends?
Sometimes. Not me and mine, though.

What is your current mood?
Content and kind of tired.

Do you get distracted easily?
Most of the time, though sometimes I am crazy focused.

Have you ever been called a bad influence?
More times than I can count.

Is there a person of the same gender who means a lot to you?
There's a few!

Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?
Scott.

Has anyone disappointed you recently?
Not recently, no.

What Color Is Your Tooth brush?
Green and white.

Name One Person That Made You Smile Today?
Kailyn makes me smile every day; she's a blast.

What Were You Doing At 8 Am This Morning?
Dropping Kailyn off at day care.

What Were You Doing 45 Minutes Ago?
Talking to Crystal.

What Is Your Favorite Candy?
Snickers.

What Is The Best Ice Cream Flavor?
Cherry Garcia!

What Was The Last Thing You Had To Drink?
Iced tea.

What Is The Longest You Have Gone Without Sleeping?
4 days.

Have You Bought Any New Clothing Items This Week?
I bought a pair of shoes, if that counts.

Ever Go Camping?
Yea, I don't much like it though.

Do You Drink Your Soda With A Straw?
Not usually.

What Did Your Last Text Message Say?
"No, she just didn't show."

What Are You Doing Tomorrow?
Making a sales pitch.

Where Is Your Dad?
Graveyard in Boston.

Look To Your Left, What Do you see?
Scott's piano; Scott seems to have left the room.

What did you do yesterday?
My taxes.

Do you love anyone?
Only the greatest guy in the whole wide universe!

What Color Is Your Shirt Your Wearing?
Black and grey.

What Color Are Your Pants?
Dark grey.

What Month Is Your Birthday In?
November.

Well, that was fun. I'm off to bed now!

2009 is Gonna Rock

2009 is just around the corner, and I've gotta say... I am much more excited about this upcoming year than probably all the other years combined!

Some of you may have already heard, but Scott prosed the other day! We haven't picked a date yet, but we have already established that we want to have a small wedding, so it may happen before the end of next year. I'm very happy :) My ring is gorgeous and Scott is amazing and this is great!

I've been getting a steady flow of incoming work to do and I make more than enough money doing what I love. I have a good recording room built into my house

Kailyn's overall health has been getting better and she's growing up to be a smart, surprisingly well behaved child. I'm so happy that I got her back. I can't imagine how my life would be without her.

Benji is also surprisingly well behaved. He seems to have trained himself for the most part. He's very sweet and is Kailyn's best friend (I think she likes him more than she likes me) and they are adorable together. Also, I think he's finally almost done growing.

Crystal and Adam are among the best friends a person could ever ask for, and all my other friends are also awesome. I do miss Hope and Anna and all the rest of the New Mexico crew (though, most of them are no longer in New Mexico; it no longer seems like a fitting name for them!), but I got to go visit Hope and Haze in Italy and will likely be visiting them next year, and Anna and Freddie have come to visit me here, so it's not too bad.

With all these great things that I have here and now, 2009 is sure to be fabulous. I'm looking forward to it :)

I hope everybody has a safe and happy New Year!

Internet? What?

So, with the economy being all poopy, I've been doing as much work as I can so that I can avoid touching my savings. This has left me with practically zero free time for things that are not Kailyn, Scott, or Benji.

On the bright side, there doesn't seem to be a drop in need for music.

On the negative side, Scott's business is really hurting right now.

We've consolidated households, partly for the sake of saving money, but mostly because, well, we practically lived in the same house anyway! I had plenty of room in the house anyway. I'm not sure why Kailyn's grandfather felt the need to buy us such a huge house.

So, I converted one of the smaller "bedrooms" into a recording studio. Soundproofed the hell out of it! Foon has been very pleased with the vocals I've sent him that I recorded in there. The open room in the back has the computers, Scott's piano and my turntables set up (I think it was originally a "den", whatever the hell that means).

Kailyn got moved to the smaller bedroom because hers was way too big anyway. She also doesn't need to be right outside my bedroom anymore. We painted it for her and got her a new bed and stuff. Her bedroom is very citrus looking. She's really into orange and lime green *shrug*

Scott and I spent days arguing about which one of us had better living room and bedroom stuff... so as a compromise, we sold everything and started over heh. Our new setup is pretty spectacular.

The transistion has been pretty smooth. Having Scott here just feels natural. I'm starting to become domesticated though, it's kind of odd haha.

I'm really, really happy right now. I love Scott more than I ever would have thought I could love anybody. I think figuring myself out first really helped. That was one of the biggest problems Virgo and I had... neither of us knew ourselves. Scott is very secure and well versed in his internal monologue, and I'm almost there myself.

Anyway. I just wanted to drop a note and say hello. How's life out in the rest of the world?

Good Lord, It's Hot!

Ooooh man it's hot out. I just checked the thermometer and it's like, 104 outside right now. It's so not even summer yet!

Kailyn and I have been hanging out in the pool on and off today. She's taking a nap right now. Her little shoulders got sunburned, poor thing. She seems to be more sensitive to the sun than I am.. us pale redheads don't do well with the sun heh. I'll have to get some higher SPF for her.

Scott is also asleep. His allergies have been terrible all day. I gave him some Benedryl and Benji is asleep on his chest. They're cute.

Adam just called to see if he should rally the troops for a mini potluck or something. It could be fun. I'm sure they'll all get together anyway. At this point it's probably just about if they're coming to my house or going to Adam's. *looks around* It is pretty clean... and if I supply the house, then I don't have to cook. Hehe. I don't feel like getting out of my chair.

I think it's a good day for a BBQ.

How's the weather in the rest of the world?

Oh, Hi Subconscious...

So, I've been doing a lot of thinking lately (you know, that almost always winds up being a bad idea). I'm coming up on the 4 year mark since I left Boston. I think that was one of the best things I could have done for myself. Sometimes it feels like I gave up and ran away, but really... I think I removed myself from a bad situation because I knew that no good could come from staying. The two options might look similar but I think there's a big difference.

The weeks I spent wandering helped me figure out what I needed to change about myself, and what hidden traits I had that I needed to polish. Self-reflection rocks.

The time that I spent in New Mexico was a MAJOR part of my healing process. I figured out so many things about myself. I made some friends that I know will always be there for me. I realized that I am capable of being in love, and trusting people, and caring about someone else without forgeting Jules. I learned the value of taking things day by day, but still having some sort of very tentative, flexable plan. The only new scar I gained there was a physical one from a freak accident involving a switchblade, but no emotional ones.

Bringing Kailyn home when her dad died helped me grow in tremendous ways. It's amazing how much I matured as soon as I held her in my arms and realized that this crazy, tiny little person had instantly become my whole entire world. I hadn't been strong enough to grow in ways that I needed to grow for myself, but I was more than willing to do it for her, and I sometimes feel that while she was originally a large part of what almost killed me, in the long run, she saved my life.

Now that I'm here in Arizona, I feel like I'm ready to start a real LIFE for myself. I finally feel like I have something to look forward too. I feel like a whole person, instead of just fragments of one.

This is a great feeling.

Daylight Saving Time

Dear Rest of the United States, and Probably Canada:

I live in Arizona. I didn't have to change my clock today. HAHA!!

Love,
Jules